Holy cow! It's been a long time
since I've actaully felt like updating this thing. Well a lot has been
going on these past few months. I'm not sure what all I've said but I
do know I'm not sharing it all. I was in the hospital in Feb. and that
changed everything for me. Everything for the better though! It made me
so much stronger then I already was and proved I really can make it
through anythint.

I've had my down-falls since I
got out of the hospital but I just get back up and keep going. So I've
finally decided that this really isn't going to be easy but that also proves the point.

It's not supposed to be

I definitely have the most amazing people sticking by me through all of
this. I've met a LOT of new people and started talking to people I knew
a long time ago. It's crazy how things change like they do and you
think you can't go on but you realize how much you are going to benifit
from it in the long run.

I'm actually figurnig out what
life is now. I mean I have some what of an idea but it's constant ups
& downs and changes. For the first time I understand what people
say when they tell you take the good out of every bad situation. if you
took all the bad...welll....you're fucked! (Sorry couldn't think of any
other way to put it....)

Well some more good news! I
thought that with Jamie & Craig getting a divorce things would
change. Well they did, but Jamie is finally happy, and I've never seen
her so excited to be with somebody. Mark treats her really really good!
Craig is always going to be a part of my family. He is part of Avery's
life & my sister's. The divorce made our relationship strong again!
We talk almost every day again and laugh about the dumbest things, and
it feels like she is actually here with me.

SPEAKING OF BEING HERE!!!!!!

They are moving to Tennessee in August! Meaning I'm only going to be 5
hours away and will be seeing them once or twice or three times a
month. We get to spend birthdays, holidays, weekends, days off of scool
& work together. It's going to be like it used to be, even though
it's 5 hours instead of 5 minutes. BUT it's also 5 hours instead of 20!!










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I am bored so I just keep adding quotes!


It's not about who you`ve known for the longest
    its about who never left your side.



it's funny how you go through the year
& nothing changes, but when you look back
[ EVERYTHiNG iS DiFFERENT ]



I guess it's typical
to cling to memories you'll
never get back again.



cause i'm not the kind of girl who gives up
        j u s t  l i k e  t h a t.



It's Weird. The way we always find ourselves RUNNING BACK ;;
to the ones we USED TO LOVE ;;
for some reason, t h i n k i n g that it might ;;
work out DIFFERENTLY ;;
the s e c o n d time around ;;



If you wanna know who ur true friends are...
Screw up and see whos still there.



Six words simple but true:
 I' d b e s o l o s t w i t h o u t y o u



You don't realize how strong a person is until you
see them at their weakest moment



There are certain people who aren't meant to fit in your life
no matter how much you want them to.



Dont stress the people in your past
theres a reason why they ;; didnt make it to your future



You got enemies --> good
         that means you stood up for
something once in your life



sometimes i wish i could just
fast foward through life &&
see if all of this is worth it
ive realized what life is all
about its hanging on when
your heart has had enough
&& its giving more          <3
when you feel like giving up



Sometimes you need to forget about what you want
& remember what you deserve



theres a point in life
when you get tired of ..
chasing everyone; && trying to fix everything
but its not giving up ..
its realizing that you don`t need certain people
&& all of the drama that they bring.



Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person.
Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart grow fonder.
Thanks to those who envied me, you made my self-esteem grow stronger.
Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important.
Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.
Thanks to those who left, you showed me that nothing lasts forever.
Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the true meaning of  "friendship"



Even if i said i didn't care
a million times over again,
you'd know that i still do



i guess i just have to accept that you aren't
the person that i once knew & that we
aren't the best friends that we once were



Never make someone a priority when they only make you a choice



dont be friends with people who
change you to someone your not.
be friends with the people who'd be crazy with
you because thats the real you.
now thats true friends

 And i guess thats what a friend is for. To drag you along the rough side of the road. To make you get up after your mistakes. To make sure you are all right after your first love is over. To help yourself relize that there are people out there that actually care for someone like you.

    go ahead and (walk in my shoes)
 i bet you'll fall (on the first step)



If there ever is a day when you just cant seem to go on..there is something you  must always remember. You are braver than you believe; stronger than you seem; and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if you feel like quitting,
remember that life will go on.

have you ever noticed the second you mess up
everyone is ready to throw it in your face
but the minute you finally get it right
no one seems to notice?

N0B0DY SAiD iT W0ULD BE EASY
*THEY SAiD iT W0ULD BE W0RTH iT



To LET G0 isn't to forget, not think about, or ignore.
It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.
Letting go isn't winning, nor is it losing. It's not about pride.
It's not obsessing about or dwelling on the past.
It isn't about loss and it's not defeat.
To let go is to cherish memories but overcome them.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change,
the strength to keep moving.
LETTiNG G0 iS GR0WiNG UP



&& the harder life gets, the better the friends are.



There are things that you don't want to
happen, but you have to accept. There are things
you don't want to know, but you have to learn.
&& There are people you can't live without, but
you have to let go.



time goes by so fast - people go in
and out of your life, time goes by never
miss the opportunity to tell these
people how much they mean to you**


I hate going out in public with you
God you are so embarrassing
You act like no one else is around
So loud, so crazy, so you
& you don't care what they think
I love that about you.
(I can't tell you how many people have said that about me..haha)



____Yeah we may laugh to loud
& act way too immature
but I wouldn't have it any other way ____



Take out the picture. Blow of the dust.
Take of the frame it's starting to rust.
Remember the time we had together...
What ever happened to Best Friends Forever



I wasn't born with enough middle
fingers to let you know what I think



the  greatest challenge
in life is to find a person
who knows all your flaws,
differences, && mistakes
and yet, still sees the best in you



the only people you need in your
life are the people that need you
|[ * i N t h e i r S ]|



Anyone can give up.
It's the easiest thing in the world to do.
But to hold it all together when
everybody would understand if you fell apart
That's true strength.



My friends are everything to me...
I just wish I could give them
Everything they are wanting
Because God knows they deserve it



Courage doesn't always roar ;;
Sometimes courage is the quiet
Voice at the end of the day saying
I will try again tomorrow



A friendship needs two people
When theres only one person holding on
you realize you have to let go





& I was told to do this but I suppose it's worth it =)



I LOVE YOU APRIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




hahahahahahahaha

GOOD NEWS!! GOOD NEWS!! GOOD NEWS!!

Me and my Aunt Carlita I miss that woman


My baby


I heard this song and I fell in love with it. Read the lyrics & if you can download it and listen to it.

The Greatest Love of All
Whitney Houston

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

Chorus:
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Chorus:
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all  

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

 NOT EVERYTHING IS BAD THOUGH!!!

Dom & Avery


Christmast Bath


She was playing with her little rubber frog that we figured out squirts water out of it's mouth!!


¤ Christmas Ones To Come ¤